I Fix’d It: Women’s Encyclopedia entry, ‘Menstrual Blood’

Welcome to another issue of “I Fix’d It”, a sporadic series where I scrawl my thoughts, objections, amendments, and corrections directly onto whatever it is I’m reading. 

Today we have an entry for ‘Menstrual Blood’ from the Women’s Encyclopedia of Myths & Secrets by Barbara G. Walker.  My general notes on the content/author is that:  for a book entitled WOMEN’S Encyclopedia there sure is A LOT about men and men’s depravity in this book.  Like roughly 60%-70% of the info is about men, or is explained within the context of men’s history/perspective/lies.   Our author seems trapped in such liberal failings as; sex-positivity, sympathizing with teh menz, sacred kink, demonizing Christian practices that protect women, and more. There are large chunks of the text that I breeze over for this reason. Despite the vast majority of the information being male-centric rubbish, it is all very telling in regards to how men have always been parasites. And I am still motivated to wade through it in order to reach some illuminating diamonds in the rough, reversing some reversals along the way.   Feel free to add your own edits in the comments!!

IMG_4016IMG_4015IMG_4017IMG_4018IMG_4019

Advertisements

I Fix’d It: Women’s Encyclopedia entry, ‘Asceticism’

Welcome to another issue of “I Fix’d It”, a sporadic series where I scrawl my thoughts, objections, amendments, and corrections directly onto whatever it is I’m reading. 

Today we have an entry for ‘Asceticism’ from the Women’s Encyclopedia of Myths & Secrets by Barbara G. Walker.  My general notes on the content/author is that:  for a book entitled WOMEN’S Encyclopedia there sure is A LOT about men and men’s depravity in this book.  Like roughly 60%-70% of the info is about men, or is explained within the context of men’s history/perspective/lies.   Our author seems trapped in such liberal failings as; sex-positivity, sympathizing with teh menz, sacred kink, demonizing Christian practices that protect women, and more. There are large chunks of the text that I breeze over for this reason. Despite the vast majority of the information being male-centric rubbish, it is all very telling in regards to how men have always been parasites. And I am still motivated to wade through it in order to reach some illuminating diamonds in the rough, reversing some reversals along the way.   Feel free to add your own edits in the comments!!

IMG_4021IMG_4022

IMG_4023

IMG_4024

Medicalized Violence Against Women

LINKS~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

Stolen Knowledge from Wise Women (timestamp): https://youtu.be/34ow_kNnoro?t=1404
Anarcha, victim of gyn. experimentation: https://www.nathanielturner.com/anarchas_story.htm

Problems with gyn screening: http://margaretmccartney.com/2012/04/10/womens-hour-cervical-screening/
Women’s Comments about Harmful Gyn Procedures: https://forwomenseyesonly.com/2013/07/19/the-other-side-of-the-colposcope-clinic-employees-opinions/?blogsub=confirming#subscribe-blog
More Comments: https://unnecessarypapsmears.wordpress.com/2013/07/12/over-10000-lost-comments-on-unnecessary-pap-smears-find-a-home/comment-page-5/#comment-106
Dangers of LEEP/LEETZ procedure(+comments): http://www.hormonesmatter.com/unspoken-dangers-leep-procedures/
PTSD after Leep/Leetz: https://www.hormonesmatter.com/sexual-trauma-leep/

Dr. Mendelsohn clip: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WIMECtSrFGQ
Book: Confessions of a Medical Heretic: https://www.goodreads.com/book/show/87543.Confessions_of_a_Medical_Heretic
Another book by Mendelsohn : MALe Practice, How Doctors Manipulate Women

Hospital Birth vs. Home Birth story: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eZ0ccXPxHgM
The Business of Birth Documentary: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sCp9tiEiQEU
Forced Episiotomies: http://humanrightsinchildbirth.com/kellys-story

Mumset child regret: https://www.mumsnet.com/Talk/feeling_depressed/1146040–deep-breath-I-regret-having-children
I regret having children FB page: https://www.facebook.com/IRegretHavingChildren/

Teengirl after HPV Vax: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=B3keDWTebJk
Vaxxed YT channel: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCwZDSEpPvE398OLazdituKQ
Vax Not YT channel: https://www.youtube.com/user/originalcause/videos
Doctor debunking Herd Immunity: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sDU6-LdV74s

Reporting Vaccine Injuries: https://vaers.hhs.gov/
Federal Law Protects Vaccine Makers: https://www.policymed.com/2011/03/supreme-court-rules-in-favor-of-protecting-vaccine-makers-from-state-lawsuits.html
National Vaccine Injury Compensation Program: https://www.hrsa.gov/vaccine-compensation/index.html
Vaccine Court/Defining Vaccine Injury: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kcrmSl8f4xI

LEEPs w/ cervix pulled down (WARNING GRAPHIC):


The Ladybird & The Wasp. A “romance”.

 

In pondering all matters men and women, misogyny, patriarchy and trying to entertain Ultimate Solutions for women regarding male parasitism, I keep coming back to the Wasp and the Ladybird analogy I used in my post about the Samburu women.  Above is a video that gives you an idea of what I’m referring to.  There is a lot about the “relationship” between the Dinocampus Coccinellae Wasp and the Ladybird that are eerily similar to the “relationship” between men and women, “relationship” being a gaslighting euphemism for a parasitic dynamic.  There are a lot of parallels when looking at the Ladybird/Wasp interactions compared to Women/Men interactions.

 

Here are a few examples that come to mind…though there are many more I can’t quite articulate…..This list is by no means exhaustive:

-The parasite-wasp is corporally dependent on the Ladybird-host for it’s own propagation, it must get it’s DNA into the host body in order for the parasite to survive as a species. Men are genetically and corporally dependent on women for their own propagation, men must get their DNA into women’s body in order for men to survive as a species.

-The parasite has evolved physical, chemical, and strategic tools to procure a host/victim and to coercively inject it’s DNA into the host’s body, forcing the host to incubate and birth more parasites.   Men have evolved physical, chemical, social, psychological, systemic, and other strategic tools to procure and control women and girls, and to coercively inject men’s DNA into female bodies, forcing women to incubate and birth more men (and future victims).

-The host faces tremendous peril in the process of carrying parasite’s offspring to term, risking death or permanent debilitating corporal damage.  Women face tremendous peril in the process of carrying men’s offspring to term, risking death or permanent debilitating corporal damage.

-Vital resources are extracted from the host’s body by the incubating parasite offspring.  Vital resources are extracted from women’s bodies by gestating and nursing offspring.

-The parasite faces no corporal risks in the creation of it’s next generation. Men face no corporal risks in the creation of their next generation.

-The parasite employs a plethora of sophisticated tactics to attract, trap, confuse, deceive, violate, paralyze, anesthetize, hold captive, and tether its host to ensure maximum resource extraction.  Men employ a plethora of sophisticated tactics to attract, trap, confuse, deceive, violate, paralyze, anesthetize, hold captive, and disable its host to ensure maximum resource extraction.

-When a host is held captive with a parasite (such as the video above), the host will be subjected to repeated victimization by the same parasite and by subsequent parasites birthed by the host, continuing until the host perishes.  When women are held captive with men (“families” in “homes”, and sex-slavery), women and girls are subject to being victimized repeatedly by the same man or different men (father, uncle, grandfather, johns) and by subsequent men (brothers, cousins, sons) some even birthed by the victim herself, often continuing until the woman or girl is murdered (“domestic” violence).

 I keep pondering these similarities when I’m exploring the meanings of the things that women experience under patriarchy, trying to make sense of male behavior, and ultimately trying to determine Ultimate Solutions for women as a class.   I find all of these things to make an eerie type of sense when the Ladybird/Wasp dynamic is juxaposed over them.  Through this lens I find myself seeing men as the wasps.  And seeing women as the Ladybirds.  So when I wonder to myself, what should women do?  What’s our solution to being victimized by these parasitic wasps?  I ask, What would/should the Ladybird do?  And just like in my previous post, when I posited the questions “Should women be educating boys?”, the parallel question to that is “Should Ladybirds try to educate wasps?”.

 

But in pondering the should-ness of ANY type of engagement between a host and a parasite in consideration of the host’s well-being, the answer will be “no” assuming a natural, open world context.  Because in a natural, open world context the host can escape and avoid to a successful degree.  Seeing as how any host has nothing to gain from engaging parasites, nothing to gain and, often, everything to lose, the most clear and immediate solution is escape and avoid.  Contrast with that, the parasite who has everything to gain from the host, and losses/risks are either minimal, low likelihood, worth it, or non-existent.  The parasite will always benefit from engaging a host.  Therefore creating enmeshments between itself and its host, entanglements of itself with its host, will only increase the parasitic success rate.  Any tactic that closes proximity to the host, keeps the host present, keeps the host engaged, keeps the host trapped will increase the potential for parasitic gains, and increase the potential for harm to the host.  The ladybird as nothing to gain and everything to lose from engagement with or having proximity to the parasite.  So the question of “should hosts engage parasites in any way?” is an easy one to answer presuming a natural, open world context.  No.  We should not engage the parasites in anyway.  Therefore, women should not engage men in anyway…right?

  

Well, in the case of humans, especially when banal questions of individual choice come up, it gets more complicated because the natural, open-world context hardly applies, and is diminishingly applicable as male “civilization” continues to spread to even the most remote parts of the world.  This is the reason for my using the term “natural, open-world context”, to imply that in the case of the “developed” homo rapien world, the situation we are facing is not natural, but artificial.  Most girls/women on the planet (except possibly a very lucky few) have been born into a network of material and immaterial infrastructures, institutions, and other systems that have been built by our parasites.  A parasitocratic enclosure, if you will, that is specifically designed to keep us hosts trapped, entangled, enmeshed, confused, over-whelmed, distracted, disabled, to keep us engaged with the parasites, unable to get away or see a way out.  It is also design to prevent us from fighting back in many many ways.  “Modern civilization” is a system specifically designed to guarantee that parasites (men, even the lowliest of them) have access to women (the hosts) for resource extraction and parasitic propagation.  

 

Welcome to your “home”land, ladies.  

 

While, Dinocampus Wasps are not sophisticated enough to build an enclosed system that keeps generation after generation of Ladybirds trapped in bondage, they do use their cocoon to tether the Ladybird down while the parasite offspring continues to develop off of its host’s body.  This makes me picture patriarchy as a complex, all-encompassing system of cocoons that the parasites have spun all around us. Their cocoon is nearly all that we know.  This cocoon is designed to prevent us from getting away.  Men have taken the free and open world, and turned it into and inescapable hell.  

 

The patri-parasitocratic cocoon keeps us positioned in close proximity to the parasites, and we are blockaded from accessing the resources we need to live autonomously. Men have strategically stolen, destroyed, and blocked our natural and free access to resources, and men have hoarded these resources, placing themselves (aka their dicks) between us and our subsistence, thereby creating in the hosts an artificial dependency.  This artificial dependency is a male/parasitic-reversal come true, for it is actually the parasite who is naturally dependent on the host (cue MRA’s whinging about female “parasitism”).  Hosts have zero natural dependency on parasites, because as I said, nothing to gain nothing to gain nothing to gain.  And women have absolutely no natural need for men.  But men, the sophisticated crafty parasites that they are, have us trapped in their cocoon, cut off from free access to natural resources, starving us until we give in to their demands that we engage with them, tend to them, serve them, entertain them, fuck them, suck them, feed them, coddle them, make more of them, birth them, raise them, lay on the alter of them, love them, love them, love them…..or hate them, hate them, hate them it doesn’t matter.  So long as we stay engaged with them they stand to benefit off of exploiting us, and we are rationed just enough resources to not quite die all the way….but then sometimes they do kill us for their own Ultimate Pleasure.  

 

But parasites would never be so foolish as to exterminate the hosts completely, so a parasite’s ultimate solution is to engulf the host, to incorporate, enslave, and incapacitate. Incapacitate…..this basically means separate host bodies from host brains. Host body is needed, but host brain (autonomy) is problem for parasite. (see more on Brain Damage)

 

This cocoon includes immaterial trappings as well.  Mind-bindings like words, narratives, stories designed to keep hosts confused and fused to the parasites.  Ideas like “community”, “family”, “equality”, “romance”, “yin yang”, and “harmony of the sexes”/ “complimentarity”, “two wings of a bird”, “couples” are all psycho-social fabrications that create artificial relational bonds between parasites and hosts.  “Civilization”, “Human-kind”, “people” and “children” are words that conflate parasites and hosts and assign a false co-responsibility to women for the destruction of the earth and ultimate end of the world and life as we know it (aka men’s existential semen stain on the universe).  

 

Immaterial resources are blocked, destroyed, and hijacked by men as well, resources which would benefit their hosts, such as social and spiritual communities with other women, and emotional bonds between women.  The parasitic system breaks its hosts’ minds and hearts at very young ages by mangling relational bonds between women and girls, and none is more key to doing this than the Mother-Daughter bond (more on this in a future post, but here’s an apt quote from witch wind).  

“Our first source of security as humans (females) comes from women, that is, as a child, from our mother. We relate to women and to the world in part according to how our relationship to our mother was structured: our basic psychological development and survival in the first several years of our life is essential and entirely dependent on our close bond and care from the mother or female surrogate.

Men break this security by oppressing both mothers and daughters, taking control over women and girls. They create a state of abandonment and forced betrayal by the mother which they then take advantage of to organise trauma-bonding to men.”

Breaking Mother-daughter bonds conditions hosts into a life-long pattern of isolation from each other, and being hateful, fearful and distrusting of one another.   Hosts are then left to instead bond with parasite surrogates (fathers, brothers, boyfriends, husbands, sons, male peers, priests, Jesus/God, etc) which, again, creates in hosts an artificial socio-emotional dependency.  Hosts learn to associate parasitic contact with trace amounts of social interaction, “bonding”, “love” and “affection” which is just enough to temporarily prevent hosts from completely succumbing to various forms of psycho-emotional sickness (anxiety, depression, loneliness, boredom, suicide etc.), just enough to keep us from killing ourselves, but still suffering a slow, life-long spiritual death.  Men also block, destroy creativity and humor in women, and claim all creative/comedic domains as their monopoly, forcing women to drown in insufferable boredom and again making us dependent on men to access trace amounts of “fun”, “entertainment”, “self-expression”, and laughter.

 

Additionally, as Cannabis Refugee points out in her struggle with supporting herself in this money-driven, isolating, women-hating, woman-violating parasite’s “paradise”……. for individual women to forgo a single enmeshment with a single parasite does not necessarily equal her liberation.  For many women, that can to result in free-floating in the cesspool of parasites and parasitic excrement that compose the “society” we are trapped in.  From frying pan to fire.  But I digress, I am not here to tediously dissect individual “choices”.

 

So when we return to the question “Should women engage with men?” given the forced artificial context, the answer is not a simple “no”.  Artificial does not mean not real.  Artificial simply means Not natural, which to say that an artificial dependency is still a dependency.  Which is to say, that the artificial context that men have created is, itself, a tactic that vetos our “no”-via-escape.  There are some who find the answer to the question to still be a simple “no”.  And perhaps they are not wrong in some ways.  But perhaps I am not asking the right question to begin with.  Is there another way to “say no”?

 

I can only think of 2 other ways to for women as a class to “say no” to men’s parasitism.  Die, which would be for us to kill ourselves, and refuse to continue to be a resource for them to exploit and build their heinous empires with.  Or……..what do you think?  What is the final option? The Ultimate Solution?  Women’s entire existential conundrum is that of the battered woman.

 

How do women overcome these artificial dependencies?  What do wild creatures do when backed into a corner?

 

I am convinced that Women’s Liberation is incompatible with the following conditions:

1. Women being dependent on men’s “resources” (money).

2. Women refusing to engage in violence against men.

3. And possibly….Men existing.

“Morality”

sacrafical woman

I KNOW I’m a good person.

Let this image above sink in.  WHO is being sacrificed?  WHO are considered “GOOD”?  How MANY Women do you see? How MANY Men?  WHAT are they DOING?

I AM a GOOD person woman.

But does that mean anything?  Does that mean anything to me?  Does that mean anything to male-made “culture”?  I’m “so good”, which means that I will sacrifice myself.   I am “good” to unblinkingly birth compassion for men time and time again for their “mistakes”….their “mis”understandings.   I am “good” to go to the ends of the earth to SAVE every micro-thing that men threaten (which adds up to an existential fuck-ton).  I am a “good person woman” because I think……and think……and think…..until my body expires and I no longer have a medium with which to think (or act).   I’m SUCH A GOOOOOOOD PERSONNN!    Should We settle for being a “Good Person“?  Is that a KARMIC Balance We should accept?  Cuz at least We didn’t dare to try….right?  At least We didn’t dare to fight.  Fighting would make us “NOT Good”….and “good”-hood is all we have, right?   “Good”-hood is ALL that men award us right?,  so………

Is that actually WORTH anything?

*additional notes*

The IMAGE:  She is encircled by violent men on one side, and pressed against an open cliff on the other.  The MESSAGE:  “do you want to be ravaged by sadistic, violent parasites? Or brutally dashed to pieces on the cliffs?”

This, the timeless and Impossible “choice” that men force on us throughout the ages and empires.

There is, in fact a third (and most real) choice…..  and men have very particular words to describe us for making such a choice: evil, wicked, demon, witch, devil….you’ve heard them.  Only the biggest barrier, and the ugliest words, for the most viable escape route……

 

Brain damage. Better things to do, or “better” things to do?

Men cleave our consciousness in half, putting us in a dismembered state, which makes us easier to control because it mimics brain damage. In fact, I’m willing to say it is brain damage.  By splitting women’s minds into 2 or more pieces.  At minimum 2, the conscious/”intellectual/logical” half….and the unconscious/subconscious emotional/intuitive half.  Male psychic tactics can be used to control us from either side at any given moment. Or even both sides at once. 

At times when we women use our conscious thinking/intellect to notice patterns that point to men’s depravity and heinousness, male control tactics are used on the other half of our split mind, the emotional/intuitive/subconscious.  Strategies include mostly emotional blackmail to get us to un-notice those patterns.  Guilt tripping, gas lighting, shaming, social stigma, or just out right intimidation, terrorization, or lies to get us to un-notice the obvious facts of the harm that men and male “society” cause us.  Additionally, I categorize “spiritual” angles of control as a style of unconscious/emotional control as well.  When women speak the truth about men, men (and male-minded women/token torturers) will encourage us to become “enlightened” to seek our own inner peace and not get mentally “caught up” in the misery that men cause.  All of Men’s religions and “spirituality” are constructed for the soul purpose of emotionally controlling women .

But on the flip side, when women follow our gut instinct and use our intuition to perceive men as the hellish creatures they are, then the maledom switches over to the conscious-intellectual half of our split brains to help us rationalize, analyze, and intellectualize away our “irrational” emotional perceptions.  Or to help “educate us” in gender-obscuring rhetoric so we can be thought-stoppingly “woke”.  Sometimes the maledom controls us from both ends at the same time, implementing techniques like “self-analysis” which turns a woman’s intellectual focus inward on her own emotional perceptions and encourages her to naval-gaze herself into oblivion.   Anything and everything but allowing us to combine our mental and emotional powers to notice men for what they are. To notice the actual war that they wage against us everyday. To be cognizant of and present with own direct experiences of men’s abuse, exploitation, and destruction and hatred of women.  

It takes a tremendous amount to energy to maintain the rift in women’s minds, generation after generation.  And men have created elaborate systems to do this, that even get women to do it to other women. But men wouldn’t even mind doing it all themselves because, thankfully for men (and dangerously for women), men have nothing better to to.  Their entire existence depends on them being able to ensure that their DNA gets into a female body and reproduced.    Everything that men do is centered around THIS.  The rape, the wars, the resource hoarding, the law making, the controlling, the dismembering, the money making, the “success”, the “family”, the murder/imprisonment of other men, the destruction of nature, the medicalized control of minds and bodies, the insane and unending chase for technological “fixes”…it all revolves around them getting sexual/reproductive access to female bodies, and as a bonus extracting emotional and domestic services too.  That’s it.   There’s actual nothing more going on there.  Men have NOTHING better to do.  It is 100% worth it for them to spend every waking second of their lives strategizing (consciously and unconsciously) to conquer women.  And they do.   But it’s not even effort for them, really.  It’s instinct. 

Women on the other hand, have so many other Better things to do.  Especially, whole-membered women who are un-split. Such women would naturally be indifferent to men.   Wild Women are naturally inclined to spend our time LIVING.   Being alive, and joyful.  Making things Better.  Rolling with natural wonder and beauty, or, as Sister Solanas puts it, being “groovy”.  It takes a tremendous amount of effort for us to think defensively, let alone offensively, to think in terms of controlling everything. We are just so disinclined to do it, because we are not parasites.  We are the creators of life.  Our existence naturally revolves around making, building, creating, connecting, improving, and in general, not impeding on others or disrupting symbiotic flow or balance.

And even (many of) us women who have been ravaged by patriarchy, and have every fucking reason under the sun to be 100% focused on vengeance, we still manage to find “better” things to do besides fight back and stand up for ourselves.  Like knitting or some shit.  Or meditating. Or eat pray loving.  Or hiking.  Or “oooo shiny”.  Or bakingcookiesyay! Or “enjoying” “life”.  Or therapizing.  Or “gender queering”.  Or losing ourselves in “identities” and labels.  Or “growing” as a person, “oooohhhmmm-ing” our way out of reality.  Or “educating” boys.  Or being the “bigger person” by “transcending” men’s evil, I mean we certainly wouldn’t want to “sink to their level” now would we? Nope, “better” to just be “enlightened”, or be “woke”, or be “anygendernotawoman/iamnotme” (all of the above, aka mentally severed and effectively brain damaged).    Getting comfy with being dissociated.  

But perhaps being brain damaged is preferable to being present with ourselves in the state that this male-made reality actually evokes. A state of Powerless Rage.  It is fucking painful to just BE with ourselves in a state of powerless rage. So I get it. I get why we choose to “ooohmmmm” our way to pseudo-empowered “peacefulness”.  

Anger + powerlessness =agony.  So we stay powerless and squash our anger.  

 Another way women often “escape” being present with our state of powerless rage is by redirecting the rage towards those equally or more powerless than us.  Other women and children namely.  Just google female serial killers and what you get (aside from Wournos) is mostly baby killers.  And of course I’ve already discussed token torturers who expel their rage onto other women.  When women punch side ways or downwards we only ephemerally escape powerlessness.   

 Or we “escape” our powerless rage by becoming masochistic, a neat trick where your brain learns to cope with inescapable pain by contorting the perception of pain itself. Twisting it into “pleasure”, and then turning rage inward on the Self.  

Or we escape by “identifying” as some “gender” that is presumably not oppressed or that is “proud” of being oppressed.  Just imagine yourself a pseudo-personhood in a realm far far away from reality.   And poof, pain, rage, and powerlessness “gone”. (I’m not really here!) 

 Is there a way(s) for us to find/create POWER through which to direct our righteous rage at the source? Or have men created such an air-tight system to ensure their brutality reins over us?  Probably. Men have all the land, all the military, all the police, all the gangs, all the guns, all the prisons, all the corporations, all the technology, all the money, all the resources….and (the nail in our coffin) nearly all the women.  Men have nearly all the women on their side.  When I imagine any sort of female militia type thing, it just pales.  I admire that hell out of what some very bold individual women have done, but would I be willing to go through the torture they went through, in order to put just tiny dents in the colossal brutalizing machine that is male-made “society”?    I don’t know.  

 Is it worth it to us, Women?  Do we have Better things to do? Or do we have “better” things to do?